Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Hello there, friend,

I have been asked several times about this "next big adventure" since announcing that our house sold. What are you doing next? What's the next big adventure? The truth is, I haven't been looking at this move as an adventure at all. We don't plan to move far away. There's no baby or new job or long-distance travel. We are moving to the suburbs. That seems about as unadventurous as it gets.

But I'm trying to embrace the idea that this is our next big adventure. You're right that there is no right or wrong decision. But the older I get, the more I feel like my life is defined by my decisions. In some ways, these decisions take away some of the uncertainty but it feels a little bit like they take away some of the possibility. Everything feels permanent.

In these decisions, I'm writing the story of my life. It's no longer out there in some intangible future. It's here with this husband and these kids, with this job, these friendships, and with a house. This is my story. This is my adventure. The sooner as I can wrap my head around that, the better.