Monday, June 1, 2015

Hello there friend,

This week begins the final week of the photography class I've been taking. It has left me with so much inspiration and a lot of questions, many of them about how to be true to myself as an artist. It's brought up more feelings of fear (are you surprised?) and me questioning my style, which is changing.

I used to be very drawn to documentary style photographs, those of "real life" that capture a moment as is. In many ways I still love those photos, but I want to do more to create photographs with intent and emotion. I want to slow down, feel this thing inside me, and get it out. I'm learning that I love shadows and moody light, not always the bright and cheery photographs I take. I'm learning that I love photographs composed slowly.

Something is shifting in me, and I'm not sure how I'm going to get from where I am now to wherever I'm headed next. The thing is, I had no idea that I had any fear related to my photography until I took this class. But why should I be surprised? I have been brought to the edge of fear over and over again this year; why would this be any different?

And here's where I say that I wish we could sit down and have a cup of coffee and talk about this specific thing. I'd start with the 365 project I've held onto so loosely during this class, then move on to this shift toward creating art and what it feels like to create and share and evolve. No doubt, we would talk about vulnerability. I think that would be an interesting conversation.