Tuesday, July 14, 2015

Hello there, friend,

I am writing to you from the cafe at my local grocery store because we are still without internet after five days at my new house. Somehow our appointment slipped through the cracks, and it's unclear when we'll actually get the internet installed. It's not such a bad problem to have except when you primarily work online and have to scurry out the door to find wifi.

Still, I am grateful . . . for my new home, for central air, for boxes being emptied one at a time, for neighbors who say hello and stop for a chat, for summer camp, for time to start a new book, for all of us piling into the big bed to watch a movie at the end of the day. I've been hanging on to gratitude this week, but realizing that sometimes it's very hard to find things to be grateful for. Sometimes my gratitude feels trivial, and perhaps that is because it's all so easy to take for granted. I see what's wrong before I see what's right. I meet a challenge and see my own shortcomings. Always, I'm working on this.

And I have to believe that the more I focus on gratitude, the more I practice being kind to myself, the more I forgive others and show compassion in whatever way I can, that it will get easier to continue to do these things. We are all in the midst of a great battle. We all need to be kinder and gentler with each other and with ourselves. I want to get better with that.