Monday, August 31, 2015

Hello there, friend,

The school year begins on Wednesday, so today we are unrolling from the last weekend of summer. It came with so many plans and expectations, some of which were met; others, whisked away and discarded. All weekend, I had a funny feeling. This is it, I thought, once we get through this weekend, I can put this summer to bed and move on. I wanted to go out with a bang, but it was a little more like sputter. And I'm okay with that.

If there's one thing I'm learning, it's to not try so hard. All that trying and striving just leads to this unrelenting pressure. Who needs it? I've spent parts of my life worrying about what's coming next, or if I'll ever find what I'm looking for, or trying so hard to just not screw it all up. But you know what I really want? Just to be, and for that to be enough. To stop striving, to stop worrying, to put away the map and just follow whatever path lies ahead. I may not be very good at it, but I'm going to try.