Thursday, November 19, 2015

Hello there, friend,

I'll be honest and say that I like personality tests. I like examining my personality and behavior, and get a lot of from the self understanding that comes with it. My husband, who is not a psychologist but who recently took a psychology class, never hesitates to say that personality tests are just a guideline. I wholeheartedly agree. But I like a guideline. I like knowing that the reason I feel so depleted after a night at book club is because I need to recharge by being alone. I like knowing that the weird, intuitive way I see things is hardwired into me and not something I should fight against. I like looking at my interior life and accepting it as part of how I was created.

But I have a unique case, one in which I was told for many years that my nature was somehow wrong. I am too much in my head. I shouldn't trust my feelings or intuition. The way I see the world and do the things I do is wrong because it isn't the way someone else does it. As I unpack that and look at my own story, I'm realizing that how I am is not wrong, who I am is not wrong. I see things in my own way and process the world the way I do because that is how I was made. And if a personality test can help me tap into that so I can accept myself more and more, I'm all for it.