Thursday, December 3, 2015
hello there, friend,
for the last few days, the only thing that has quieted my mind is reading. the to-do lists in my head and scratched out around me on various pieces of paper feel never ending. i have felt completely overwhelmed, knowing i can't do it all. when this happens over the course of days, i often turn inward, feeling resentment well up inside... feeling shame and guilt that i have this resentment. none of this helps, as you know.
out of the blue my husband called me at work yesterday and i had the opportunity to relieve myself of some of the burden i was feeling, of some of the resentment i had been harboring. he listened and validated my feelings and for the first time in days, i felt so much lighter. some of that was due to the tears that fell, but what i felt more than anything was that i wasn't alone.
this morning i remembered the quote of brene brown's... 'if we can share our story with someone who responds with empathy and understanding, shame can't survive.'