Wednesday, January 13, 2016

Hello there, friend,

I also have found myself journaling in the new year, mostly when I need to clear the clutter in my own head. I listened to that same podcast with the neuroscientist about how overloaded our minds are. Like you, I can relate. But unlike you, I often feel like my mind is overloaded with self-indulgent thoughts, things that make me feel less-than or like no one understands me. These thoughts bog me down and prevent me from getting anything accomplished. So I've decided to get them down on paper, talk back to them, and hopefully let them go. So far it's working.

I've sort of given up on the to-do list. Most days I feel lucky if I can accomplish one or two things out of the regularly daily tasks, and I'm learning to be okay with that. I realized late last year that so much of the pressure I was feeling was self-imposed. At some point I figured out that the way to get a lot of stuff done was to make lists and set deadlines. But that took me way off the rails to where everything was a to-do list and everything had a deadline. That's not the way I want to live my life. I want to accomplish things, yes, but I also want to enjoy my life and not just race to the finish line of nowhere.