Hello there, friend,
One of the things I have learned as I've read more about Sabbath is how deeply it is tied to contentment. When we are content with what we have, we can rest. How true that is. How much do we need to feel that sense of contentment, even if for a day, an hour, a moment. That we already have everything we need in this very moment can be an uncomfortable thought. So is the thought that it's all really outside of our control anyway. So why not rest?
This has been heavy on my heart today, the many ways I am not in control and the many ways in which I am not content. I want to be able to sit here, feel my feelings, and simply rest. I want to know that I don't have to be in control and I want to believe that it's all going to work out in the end. Or maybe that it's all going to be okay at the end of today if I choose rest, and tomorrow I can start anew. Right now, I'm not sure what else to do.