Tuesday, June 7, 2016

Hello there, friend,

Today I spent most of the day playing catch-up. I relied on all my old tricks -- I made a list, set a timer, sprinkled in breaks -- and I got a lot done. But it's never enough. The to-do list is unending. It's almost five, and I'm about to call it quits.

My family and I spent twenty-four glorious hours at the lake this weekend. It was heaven, but I was very tired from being sick all week. I'm still not right. I woke exhausted, I'm impatient, and I feel overwhelmed. I keep trying to self-diagnose to no avail.

And this isn't just from being sick last week. It's everything. In the midst of trying to do it all for my family, I've fallen into survival mode. I do whatever is urgent and forsake the rest, everything hanging by a thread. It's taken months to get to this point and weeks to recognize the toll it's taken. I guess it'll be months before things will feel okay again, but I hope not. I hope I can find a good balance of work and rest and play quickly, for my sake as much as theirs.