i crumble today, heading head first down a big black hole.
i block everyone out but the dog, and retreat to safety.
i allow myself to feel, and let my emotions flow; i write
and i cry. i see how miscommunications can so easily
lead to misunderstandings. i don't lay blame, but rather acknowledge the raw feelings and why they are there.
i use tools, that i have learned from wise teachers and pull from
past experiences.hoping to find release and light.
slowly the pain eases and some possibilities arise.
i understand i can change my mind tomorrow, but for right now
it seems right.
i am grateful for noticing, grateful for moving through the pain
and into the light. grateful i did not hit force quit like i use to.
grateful for the beauty i find every day in this life.
tiny things i noticed. . .
a one lone rose in the yard, how good it feels to wrap my hand around a warm cup of tea, juice from my apple dripping down my hand, the smell of root vegetables braising, packing for a gathering, how good the dog is at licking away tears and how beautiful the fog was laying over the river this afternoon.
today is the fourth day of our november gratitude challenge, where we are featuring an image and text from the hello there, friend community. details are on our blog. if you'd like to play along, there's still plenty of time! you can sign up on the blog or using the link in our instagram profile. we'd love to have you! b + L