Thursday, August 25, 2016


hello there, friend,

i've been thinking about to-do lists and the satisfaction i get from checking something off the list... especially if it's something i've been neglecting because of one reason or another. and while this is so, the feeling is temporary, fleeting. when the day is over, i'm more likely to feel as if i've failed when there are still things on the list. why i can't be satisfied with what i did get done or with all the things that i did that never made it to the list??

today i heard a quote by robert louis stephenson:

"don't judge each day by the harvest you reap, but by the seeds you plant." 

and this makes perfect sense. each day there are so many things i do to keep things running smoothly in our household, but what meaningful work have i done in my relationships with the people around me, or with myself? if i were to make a list of the kind words i used or the ways in which i was helpful or generous, what would that list look like?

xo,
b

Wednesday, August 24, 2016


Hello there, friend,

A few years ago, we were both part of the habit blog, a space that invited women to share a photograph and a short snippet, only thirty-six words. I found that to be a frustrating constraint, those thirty-six words, as both a participant and a reader. What can you say in such a short time? The quick and dirty answer: not much. The writing felt vague and it made me uneasy. What was shared there was often haunting and beautiful, but I wanted more.

So when we started this project, we put very few constraints on it. Post a photograph and a letter. Write whatever you want. Be as vague or as specific as you dare. To me, it's just as tricky as navigating those thirty-six words. Sometimes I sit down to write you and I'm at a loss for what to say.

When I feel that way, I know it's time to get up and change the scenery. It's time for a new perspective, which always means getting up and out of wherever I am, physically and emotionally. So when you say that you put everything aside to go enjoy the nice weather, I nod emphatically. It can be so absolutely necessary to say no to the to-do list and yes to yourself, however that might look. For me, today, it's about getting away from my work and my desk and spending some time with my family. We'll get a donut and coffee, maybe shop for school supplies. We won't be here at home, and I hope to return fresh and ready to go.

xo,
L

Tuesday, August 23, 2016



hello there, friend,

i could feel it in the air just before bedtime as i sat on the couch. there was a cool breeze coming in through the living room window. by the time i woke up in the morning, the weather had completely shifted. i walked this morning for the first time since school started, marveling at the feeling of dry cool air on my skin.

after work today, i came home to a house that needed my attention and a mental list of to-dos that i knew i could tackle and make some headway on... but i couldn't go inside. anyone who knows me knows i am a huge procrastinator, but in this case, i felt completely justified. weather like this seems like what we see in september, not necessarily in august. the cobwebs, dingy sinks, and laundry (among other things) could wait. i grabbed a book and headed out to the back yard and read, the cat next to me, feeling so incredibly grateful.

xo,
b

Monday, August 22, 2016


Hello there, friend,

This morning, I awoke to all the normal seven o'clock noises -- kids stirring, cupboard doors opening and shutting, the dog tiptoeing across the hardwoods. But no one came and got me out of bed, even though my husband was already off to work. My daughter made breakfast and both kids were playing quietly by the time I made my way downstairs.

'How did this happen?' I thought. Just a few weeks ago, we were struggling through our summer mornings. And now, on the tail end of vacation, these kids have suddenly fallen into their own routine, one where I can have a few quiet moments in bed before all the demands of the day start dropping into my lap. It gives me hope that in this coming school year we fall quickly back into our old school routine, picking up where we left off in June.

With so much uncertainty in the coming weeks as I get both kids ready to head to school every day and try to wrap my mind around the fact that my husband won't be headed to school, I have to remember that it's going to be okay. We're moving forward, whatever that means, and I don't have to be afraid even if I'm not quite sure what's coming.

xo,
L

Friday, August 19, 2016


hello there, friend,

last november our family trekked to florida for a week of camping over thanksgiving. the weather wasn't as good as we had hoped for, there were some cool and rainy days, there was lots of grumpiness on all our parts, and disagreement about how to spend our days. add sleeping in a tent and making food on a coleman stove into the mix and it seemed like a recipe for disaster. i was feeling far less than grateful.

to combat my boredom and cynicism of the family vacation in general, i started shooting quick 5-10 second clips on my phone that week and decided to make a movie each day... and surprisingly the simple act of putting them together led me straight back to gratitude. gratitude for the gift of time together, the natural beauty of florida, for the small moments that were connecting us to each other, even sleeping in a tent at night.

one of my favorite parts of our trip this summer was using my phone to shoot lots of short videos. i knew i couldn't put movies together while we were gone, it would take too much time. but, since we've been home, i've had time to put together movies of the first two weeks. i am amazed at how they remind me to be grateful and as our friend deb said in her guest post, they allow me to fall in love with my own life. they remind me that my life is rich and full in so many ways and that the memories we have made together are the most important thing.

xo,
b

Thursday, August 18, 2016


Hello there, friend,

The not-enoughness. It never seems to go away. If I try to wrap my mind around being versus doing, I get dizzy. How do we accomplish anything if we focus solely on being? How do we simply be when we are in the midst of trying to get stuff done? I don't think it can ever be all one or the other. We have to make space for both and know that we will always struggle to walk the line where we can do both well. If we ever can, which maybe we can't.

On this vacation, we've decided as a family to make a video every day. It has been incredibly fun, especially for the kids. But when we first talked about it, I immediately got it into my head that, in addition to making our daily video, I had to download, watch, and edit it that day. That lasted about an hour until I realized that I didn't want to spend hours at the computer while I was on vacation. The videos can wait, as can all the photographs I'm taking. I just want to be here, present in these moments as they happen.

The thing is, I don't have to do any of it. I can edit the videos, or simply throw them all together into one long unedited movie that no one on earth but us would want to watch. Because what matters is that we were here together, that we can look back at the memories we're making -- the boat trips and floating down the river and hiking in the woods -- and actually remember. What matters is figuring out how to be and do and walk away feeling full and happy. That the not-enoughness doesn't take over and rob us of all this joy.

xo,
L

Wednesday, August 17, 2016


hello there, friend,

your words yesterday were such a good reminder to me. right now so many things feel like drudgery. things feel heavy and frantic. even though i try to be proactive, i'm still left with the feeling that there are too many things on my proverbial plate and i can't do them all. this always leads to a feeling of 'not-enoughness'.

and so i take your words about delight and rest to heart. right now, delight and rest for me means enjoying the stories that my first graders have to tell me, sitting in silence as i drive to and from work, going to bed early with a laugh out loud book, making sure i am getting plenty of sleep, and not scrolling mindlessly through various feeds on my phone. it means connecting with my kids one on one whenever possible and reminding myself that my value isn't based on what i do or don't do... that i am enough.

xo,
b